I am not trying to mislead, that I am chasing after joy. My relationship with the word is paying attention and noticing when it wells up, as I like to call it. It exists within and is independent of outside influences. My favorite part of Joy is the interaction of experiencing it as a subtle emotion.
Joy is an emotion I feel that can come alongside other emotions that are not even in the same family.
Its fun to examine it in relation to my creative activities, the up and down processes of feeling in life/ and to my creative process.
I made this collage a while back, and without even knowing or intending it It really describes my creative process and activity.
One thing I like to do before I go to bed is to draw with a pilot pen for 20 min. If I get to bed early, I have a notebook by my bed. Sometimes I am reading a book about sketching Like drawing for Joy), or I am inspired by the I Ching, or other books I am reading.
I may not have told you but I am having an affair with my creativity. Sometimes, we slip in a meet, just before bed. She likes to dictate notes in a spiral bound lined notebook, or sometimes on loose printer paper. She likes tracing paper too.
I look longingly at the beautiful moleskines, handmade sketchbooks and she says to me, "if we are going to keep meeting like this, you need to be ready."
I say "but the sepia paint..." and she says, "inspiring wasn't it?" I laugh and continue to write on my college ruled spiral notebook.